Monday, March 21, 2011

Opportunity and Fear

I am in a class at my high school called Political Radicalism. The class is designed to expose students to radical thoughts and challenge set suburban dogmas. I think this class was designed with me in mind. I've already been forced to address personal prejudices, subscribe to a socialist philosophy, adopt a vegan diet–and it's only been one quarter. I love passionate people. I love people willing to share what they hold to be true. My class has heard a number of speakers so far this semester and not one of them alike. The only common theme in their presentations was their passion and zeal. Their idea may not be popular or easy–but they were ready to defend their perception of truth. I admire that kind of tenacity.

I was sharing with my Poly Rad teacher, Mr. Strausbaugh, about my One Dress Campaign and he informed me that we were going to have a speaker come in at the end of April who was going to share about sex trafficking. I was naturally quite excited and interested.

 "Would you be willing to give a presentation in class about your involvement with the issue?" he asked.
 "Sure!" I eagerly replied, envisioning myself giving a five to ten minute introduction to my mini-campaign, and maybe passing out some cards with facts about sex trafficking.
"Ok great!" he smiled "How does the 25th of April sound? There are Poly Rad classes during periods 4, 5, 6, and 7. Would you be willing to miss some of your other classes for this? Just a short 20 minute speech–nothing big." My heart pounded a little faster. Twenty minutes? In front of ALL of the Poly Rad classes?! (Pretty much all seniors at my school take Poly Rad.)

Check out the 25th...there's my name on the official Poly Rad calendar! 

Sharing in front of my peers is daunting. What do I have to say that will interest them? How can I talk for twenty minutes without stuttering!? Will they take me seriously? Waves of insecurity drown my thoughts. And then I remember Micah 6:8. "Do justly, love mercy and walk humbly." I have been given an opportunity to advocate for the freedom of thousands of women and children and I'm afraid I might be laughed at by some guy in the back of the room who thinks my grey dress is baggy? I have been given the opportunity to share something I am passionate about and I'm nervous that I might stutter around a bit? My fear and insecurity must be thrown away in my pursuit of justice. I am no hero (all I'm doing is wearing a dress for pete's sake!), but I have been given a chance to speak for those who have slipped under the radar for far too long. I bet I will be nervous, and I'm positive I will stutter and someone will laugh–but that will not deter me from setting forth my best efforts despite my fear.

I'm so thankful that God uses small people and small actions. I will be praying the entire time I'm presenting to my class about sex trafficking and the Daughter Project, and I have faith that the Lord will be with me.

I'm glad I get to be a part of God's grander plan. Yes, I will stumble and embarrass my way through, but He will never leave my side.

Some various grey dress days! Sorry I haven't taken a picture every day (my sisters wanted me to document my every outfit) but I promise there have been many repeat outfits and nothing too creative. I'll try to get better at documenting my adventure in my grey dress.

My sweet dog Dolly is quite supportive of the whole campaign as you can see.


  1. Your contributions on the 25th of April will be met with interest and curiosity. Be strong and courageous. I'm proud of you.

  2. You are already on my calendar for April 25, you will have my prayer all day. I can't think of anyone better suited to do what God has asked you to...He has prepared your heart and He has prepared the way. How exciting!
    "It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualification come from God. He has enabled us to be ministers of this new covenant. This is a covenant not of written laws, but of the Spirit...under the new covenant, the Spirit gives life." 2 Corinthians 3:5-6

  3. Two Things:
    1.This is you - 2 Tim. 1:7 "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." You will rock your presentation out on April 25.

    2. I can't believe you were featured on one of the blogs I follow! I started reading her post of Sex Trafficking and i was thinking to myself "I need to send her the link to my sisters blog!" and then I was like "wait a minute!!! those are pictures of my sister!" I'm pretty sure she found you though reading my blog, so you can thank me later. Just kidding. but seriously, so cool.

  4. praying for you! ps- love that yellow scarf. you make the same dress everyday look good.


  5. You are going to do amazing. God is definitely using you right now. What a joy!

  6. It's amazing how God is working through you and your story is a testament to how He can create opportunities to share His love with the world. I will be praying for you!

  7. Thank you so much for your encouraging words and prayers! It's been a tough week and your warm words were so uplifting. Our God is good!

  8. I will definetely be praying for you. Standing in front of people and talking makes me nervous as well. I'm sure you will do just fine! Sex trafficking is something that I am passionate about as well, and the more people that know about what is going on, the better!! Good on ya, girl!!